| Masked Infernal Combustion |
[Jun. 23rd, 2005|03:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Dahlia Murder - A Vulger Picture | ] |
Today I was inside the house, because the AC was on and I was not goign to complain.
My feet were cold so I traveled out of the stronghold into the barren waste land of asphault and my feet became warm. I then attempted to call my friend Sheena but there was no answer, she was going to meet me at The Rock because TwistedSin was playing there tonight and they are a good band. I know one of the guys in that band, Davy, he works where I work, he's a kool guy, he's into heavy music like me.. death metal and the like. Where was I? I forgot, I kind of trailed off... ah yes, okay.. then after I attempted to call Sheena, I called my cousin Justin and asked if he wanted to hang out tonight before I go to the show, he said yeah so I drove there. On the way I listen to the new Black Dahlia Murder album "Miasma".. it's very good, It's just like their first one. Which is very good.
More of the same from Black Dahlia Murder? I just can't complain. lol
So when I got to my cousins house his parents were talking to him about something rediculous. Does'nt matter what exactly because every syllable that escapes his parents mouths is irrelevent and ridiculous. So after he got done talking to them, me and Justin left and went to a pizza joint... it was really good. And our cherry cokes had cherrys in them, see I like when a restaraunt does something like put cherrys in your cherry coke. lol
after we ate when left and went to... taco johns! to see his friend Jesse.. and after that, we went to his friend Jakes apartment.. and after that.. we went to Justins house, chilled for a little while there.. then i left. I arrive at The Rock.
I caught the last two songs of the first band, they were okay.
I saw some of the people from my work there... john, chris, jeff, mark... hung out with them for a bit blah blah okay i'm bored and getting tired!
i'm at home and i should be sleeping, yet i'm not.
hrm. |
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| An interesting night. |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|03:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Therion - Wine of Alvqah | ] |
Today I worked. I was hoping Helena would come in and visit me, but I was'nt expecting it at all. But it turns out she worked 6:30-9. I hung around the front from like 7-8:30 talking to her and stuff. We are gunna hang out tomorrow, if she can get someone to work for her. I really hope she can.
I just got back from Davids not too long ago.
We were at Cambridge, and we went to Perkins. But I should start before that.
I was talking to David on the computer, shortly after I last wrote in here.
And he said we should like meet up in Cambridge and go to Perkins and get something to drink and just hang out. I said what the hell, I don't have anything to do, sounds good.
So I left for Cambridge. On the way there, I passed a cop. And he started following me.
I got nervous, and I missed my turn. So I started driving slowly (40 mph in a 55) trying to find a turn so I could turn around. I think that my driving so slow kind of got him suspicious. So I went onto the freeway, and I messed up changing lanes. And when I had to turn I put on my signal way too early. So right after I turned, he flashed his lights. And I got pulled over, So he comes up to the window. And asked me where I was going and stuff, and asked for my license. So I gave it to him. And he told me I was going 40 mph and stuff. And then he went to his car. And a minute later comes back, and like gives me my license back and says "Got your seatbelt on and everything?" and I'm like "yeah" and he's like "okay, have a goodnight."
Yeah, that's it. Not ticket, not even a warning. I guess I generally did'nt do anything wrong.
So then I got into Cambridge, and met up with David in Wal-mart parking lot.
We went in, he got a game. And I got candy and chap stick. After that we headed on over the Perkins, I attempted to bring my candy in, but they told me I could'nt. So I went outside and emptied the container into my pocket and said "Either way, I'm bringing my f***ing candy in."
So we got in there. And David saw this kid Brandon that goes to his school. And we sat down. I got coffee and David got a Shake. I ran out of creamer and sugar very quickly, so I went to the other tables to get more. And there were these two girls sitting behind us. And they asked me if I wanted the creamer and sugar on their table too. I said "no thanks, I'm good." Now that I think about it I should have talked to them and maybe tried to get their number, hehe. Oh well. No big thing.
So after four cups of coffee I was ready to go. So I followed David back to his house.
On the dirt road that he lives on. I was driving a little carelessly. And going down this hill and turning I lost control and drove into a ditch, and into a wire fence. It was really exciting, but scarey at the same time. Quite an adreniline rush. The noise was loud when I hit the fence, I thought it scraped my car up pretty good, but strangely it did'nt get any damage at all. And luckly I was able to back out of the ditch and back on to the road pretty easily. It was kind of funny though. David saw me through his mirror and saw me turn into the ditch, and he said he was wondering where I turned because he did'nt remember a turn being there.
I thought I would run out of gas on the way home, because I was getting pretty close to empty, but luckly I was able to make it back and I filled up my tank.
Right now my throat hurts because I tried to practice my singing/screaming in the car.
But yeah, it was quite an interesting night.
Tomorrow I have to get up at 11 am and get to the bank before they close, and I'll probably just wait around the rest of the day for Helena to call. |
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| I decided to write in here afterall... |
[Sep. 16th, 2004|12:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Moments in Grace - Stratus | ] |
Alright. So I'm writing in here again. Don't really know why, but I am.
First thing, this song is good. Stratus by Moments In Grace. The mid-breakdown is great, the guy has good vocals.
Today I woke up and left for some oral clinic place, because I have wisdom teeth that must be removed. Next week. All four of them. This is going to hurt.
And I have to pay $104 of my own money because my insurance does'nt cover the entirity. While I was in the lobby I grew impatient, while I was in the room I felt impatient. The doctor seems like an asshole, he has a heavy accent, like swedish or something. and I could'nt understand him. I mean, no offense to anyone... But people with heavy accents I feel uncomfortable around. But then I left, and I got home shortly after 3 PM. I waited for Helena to call.. she finally called at like 4:45, or around there... during that waiting time all I did was work out, and then just layed on my bed and watched the rain.
But at around 5 PM I drove to Helenas, and when I got there she cut my hair. So it's all short now. I have a shorter mohawk to be more clear.
After that we just sat on her couch in her living room and listened to music.
She had a cold or something.. cause she kept coughing n sneezing.
She said "when you leave here, you're going to get sick."
I knew what she meant by this, she was going to kiss me.
So I played around and said "I want to get sick!"
she thought I was serious, so I said "No, but really.. I don't really care if I'm sick or not."
So then a few minutes later she kissed me, and I kissed her back.
We kissed for like a minute or two... and then I said "uh-oh.. now I'm gunna get sick."
I left about a half hour later, but within that time we made out like 3 more times...
Hm.. why am I writing all of this? I don't really know...
Just that like while I was over there I felt like I was wanted, one of the few times I've ever felt like that in my whole life. It was kind of amazing.
I like this girl so much. But If things stayed the way they are now, I would'nt mind. I'm very happy with just be able to see her, and to be able to kiss her.
But it's only natural for me to want more... more than to just be friends.
That is all...
I'm seriously not going to write back in here for a while, because each entry won't differ much from the last. They will all be about Helena mostly.
Unless of course I feel like it, hehe. |
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| Today was kind of a bad day. |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|12:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Danzig - My Darkness | ] |
I worked today. So did Helena.
I wrote her a letter, and gave it to her.
It basically said I like her alot and I would like to go out with her, and that I did'nt know if we were for sure since neither of us said anything since I asked her out the first time.
She wrote me a letter back and said she was'nt ready for a commitment already.. ( she recently broke up with her bf last week). But she also said she likes what we have now, and she hopes it will continue.
This really saddend me first, but after I thought about it more. I'm alright with it.
I'm lucky just to be able to hang out with her.
That is all.
I think I'm not going to update this journal for a while. Lately I have'nt felt very compelled to. |
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| pretty fucking much |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|06:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Misfits - We Bite | ] |
Things have been really good...
The other night I went to a high school football game with Helena, there was only like 10 minutes left because I had to work until 9.
But it was good, it was nice to just do something different like that.
Then after the game we just hung out with a couple of her friends, then like her friend (her friend was driving) parked in front of her other friends house
And me and Helena just sat in the middle of the road and talked for a while. I don't really know why we were sitting in the middle of the road. but it was kool.
But during talking to her I realized that I like her alot, and that I was completely comfortable being around her.
After that they drove me to where I parked my car, and then before I got out of the car, Helena leaned over and kissed me. I don't think I could possible describe it.
I thought that if I ever kissed anyone I would feel nervous and stupid, but I did'nt feel that way at all.
Yesturday...
Me, Helena, Tyler (another kid from work), and molly (helenas friend). went swimming by this spot on the side of some railroad tracks. It was alright. Then after that we rented a movie. and went Tylers house and watched it. i sat next to Helena the whole time.. and we like cuddled n stuff, and she kept biting me.. that was kind of funny. haha... yeah. after the movie they drove me home.
helena walked me to my door... and i hugged and kissed her, and then said goodbye.i like this girl so much...
i never thought that anything like this would happen to me, i never thought i deserved it. but it has.. i can barely believe it. |
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| A good day. |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|12:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Danzig - Liberskull | ] |
Today was really good.
I worked. But like the whole time at work I was with Helena, it was really fun.
When I first got there we talked for a few minutes, and then she gave me a letter.
And what it said I really did'nt expect at all.
in the letter she said she really likes me alot... and that she broke up with her bf.
I was really happy to read this, but it kind of shocked me.
It's still kind of weird to actually know she likes me.
I mean I really like this girl alot, and for her to actually like me back is really awesome.
Tomorrow I'm going to go look at a car, and I'll most likely buy it. So that is good. |
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| Eventful week |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|09:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Opeth - Requiem | ] |
This week has probably been the one with the most unexpected events ever.
On saturday (28th of august) I talked to this girl (Helena) at work alot.
I never talked to her before that day, and I really like the way she is.
She said weird random stuff, and acted crazy. Like I do.
And I asked her out the following day (Sunday the 29th). She already has a boyfriend, so I'm uncertain why I asked her. But she has been calling me like everyday for the past week... which is good.
and my cousin Justin came over on monday until friday, he's awesome. it's super fun to hang out with him.
last night me, my friend David, Helena, and this other kid from work, Tyler, went bowling. I hate bowling, but what the hell. I went anyway.
Nothing too exciting happened, because I was somewhat nervous and it was so hot in the bowling place, and I kept saying shit that I did'nt mean to say, that's what I do when I'm uncomfortable. But that will go away the more I talk to her and hang out with her. I just hope she does'nt think "hey, this guy is pretty stupid. I don't like him."
But after we were done bowling, and we were leaving.
Helena came up and hugged me, um... it was probably the best thing ever, hah.. because like.. i've never even hugged a girl before. |
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| A passing day |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|05:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In Flames - Jester Script Transfigured | ] |
Today was very usual.
I woke around 3:00pm... ate some breakfast.
and then I went to the bank and got a checking account.
And then I came home and listened to music and play a game for a while.
Ate some chili.
And then I worked out for a while.
And then I got online, made some dinner, eggs and toast.
Worked out some more.
And got really depressed, yet again. But now I'm feeling better.
It comes and it goes, but it never goes away completely.
And that was my day.
oh, I just ate a granola bar. |
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| Rest of possibility |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|12:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Children of Bodom - Wrath Within | ] |
Today I worked. Nothing spectacular happend at work. It was a very normal work day.
My cousin Justin is coming over next week and staying for a few days. That will be kool I think.
My cousin Ashley was over this week, well, the early part of it.
She brought me an ice cream bucket full of candy corn! After this I'll probably never want to eat the stuff again.
But when she was over, Me, her, my sister, and my friend made a movie. A horror movie. It turned out kind of corny and lame. But with the right editing I might be able to turn it into something kool.
Tomorrow I have work off, but I don't know what I'll do. It will probably turn out to be another boring day. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|01:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | AFI - Bleed Black | ] |
Yesturday I went for my driving test, and I failed.
Because I went through a red light... how foolish.
And I also went to the doctor... and I have strep throat.
I got some meds for it so it will be gone soon. |
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| This sucks. |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|09:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rancid - Coppers | ] |
I have a really bad sore throat, and when I swallow it hurts really bad.
So it really sucks to eat.
Tomorrow morning I go for my driving test, if I pass I get my driving license... I really hope I pass. |
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| WHEEEE!!! |
[Jul. 24th, 2004|03:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Unearth - Lie to Purify | ] |
i am NNY.
Take the quiz: "Serial Killer Quiz"
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac
you kill assholes; lots of assholes! HOORAY for You!!!! |
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| I Need Sugar!! |
[Jul. 24th, 2004|02:34 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fear My Thoughts - When Will It End | ] |
Okay,
I wish i had some candy because i want some sugar right now!! ARGG! DAMMIT!
okay, i was listening to Tiger Army tonight and it was cold out, and it seemed to fit together nicely.
Today i just played SaGa Frontier II alot, and i realized that no matter how much i play it... i'm progressing. one day I will be done.
I wanted to call Jen, but by the time i thought of it people were using the phone line and i couldnt.
and i think she was gone at a concert anyway.
tomrorow I will work. and it will be nothing but boringness.
the music will rub me the wrong way, as it always does.
they need to play some metal!!
PPL can head bang whilst they shop for groceries!! *head bangs* |
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| Waking up early |
[Jul. 18th, 2004|08:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tiger Army - Rose of the Devil's Garden | ] |
Things have been alright.
I woke up early today, because i was at my friends and i had to go to church.. it was boring, i had a pepsi tho, and i drew a pretty kool picture.
And then i came home and mowed the lawn..
Yesturday i got the new Tiger Army cd, and it's pretty good...
And yesturday I was introduced to Chelseas (my friends gf) cousin.
Her cousin was really kool, i wish i could have hung out with her more but unfortunately i'll probably never see her again.
i want to see Jen really bad, i wish i had my license right now!! |
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| WHOO-HOO! My SH Disk works! |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|09:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Horrorpops - Horrorbeach | ] |
I'm feeling a little better than I was earlier, my cousin Justin is coming over tomorrow for a few days.
And a couple hours ago I managed to get my cd with all my Silent Hill stuff working,(a video game series, but to me, so much more) with images, videos, audio, and all of that stuff.
I could'nt get it to work before, and I thought I lost it all.
I spent countless hours looking for all that stuff, I was majorly bummed out... I was so sure that I lost it. But somehow I got it working. And I'm happy about that. |
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| The start of a bad day. |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|05:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Avenged Sevenfold - Second Heartbeat | ] |
Today I was sitting on the couch with my mom going through all the cards people gave me for my graduation party, and we came accross my cousin Mandys, and my dad started bitching (yet again) about how she's a loser and all that crap. So this time I decided not to take it, so I yelled back at him. I said, "We don't want to hear it! You've already said this same thing a million times." so then he got all mad about it, and went in his bedroom.
I feel guilty, but I should'nt. But whatever. |
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| Nothing |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
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My daily routine seems to be re-occurring. |
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| A Boring Day |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|10:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bleeding Through - Savior, Saint, Salvation | ] |
Not much happened today, I woke up at around 2.
I played a stupid game all day, wasting my time.
David and Chelsea came over for a little while, and they left about an hour later.
That's all that's happened today.
Yeah, I'm spelling happened wrong I think. |
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| Tired. |
[Jul. 3rd, 2004|10:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Katatonia - Will I Arive | ] |
Today was a boring day,
I woke up and got ready for work, and then went to work.
At work I really did'nt feel like working much, so I did'nt.
And now I'm at home bored still.
And it will continue on until I go to sleep. |
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| A Hot Day |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|12:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Danzig - Her Black Wings | ] |
Today was sooo hot out.
My cousins, Justin and Jeremy, and Justins friend, Jesse I think his name was, came over.
We talked about music. Jesse dislikes AFI. Too bad for him because he does'nt know good music if he does'nt like them.
But then I had to leave for work.
They came with me to work, and we were in the store talking for a little while, and justin gave me this keychain thingy that says "Over-worked and Under-paid", and I clipped it onto my wallet chain. lol.
The time at work went pretty fast, 3 and a half hours.
When I got home my cousins and their friend were watching Haggard.
And then shortly after they had to leave.
And that's it. |
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